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Saturday, January 22, 2011, 8:22 AM
from her BF
Ajen here. Actually I've got nothing much to say since this is my first blog post in her blog. But I shall try my best to update frequently & to update you all what's happening within us. Sometimes she'll update it or sometimes I'll update this cute lil blog. So what happened today? Met my dearest girlfriend a.k.a owner of this blog nearby workplace. Sweet of her for fetching me.(: Overall was a wonderful day. Watching all kind of performance especially at Esplanade whereby the melayu rapper nak step pakai American assents. Phui! Whatever it is, Singapore's Got Talent! Haha Sent her home till the gate there, hopefully to increase her Mummy's trust towards me & also as a repay for fetching me. & to my dearest Mama, please take good care of your health. Because, its you Mama. I'm not a doctor but your boyfriend who is willing to help you by advising and monitor your health. That's my priority. And meet you soon on the 25th Mama :D Mwahugs! Sorry for the short post as I summarized everything. (: -Ajen Tuesday, January 18, 2011, 7:05 PM
Sick=(
Sick , sick , sick !! Tomorrow meeting bbylove . He will be picking me up from school. Right now my mouth swollen seyh, because of the medicine . Im still having fever , 38.7 .. I hope it will go down down down? Haish , i hope i can get well soon seyh .. Im missing him so much already . Its like one year tak umperh. Fever , flu , cough , please please go away , very dhe irratating taw =( I cant sleep thru the night .. How i wish he is right my by side? Just now i was searching something til i saw his blog again . My guy punyerr last time punyaa bloggie. There are two blogs? But its in 2008 - 2009 . So i dont give a damn about it , past is past. But if he is still carrying his past with him then i dont know what to do . Wehh i jealous just to be honest. His ex girlfriends are damn pretty pretty pretty. Except for me -.- **haaaccchhuuuuu*** Signing off right now **haaacchuuu** sorry sorry got flu =( Labels: =( , 6:58 PM
Dedicate to the bastard;
Dedicate to the bastards ; Those who had hurt me , now you all regret. Asking me for patch , but i cant go back to you all. You all are always like this to me , When im attach you guys nak patch when im single you guys nanak ! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU GUYS TRYING TO DO? I know you guys dont like my guy , Eh but dont judge people by their looks ahh sial ! You all hurt me so deeply til i still have a scare in my heart. Right now i know my own guy is trying to my heart . First of all i didnt leave you guys because of other guys. Think leh , i left you all because of what you did. I just want to explain things to you all since now i know that shahcok is someone i knew before . And i also knew that you guys are always reading my blogg. Before anything happens let me explain to you guys. Muhammad Sufian Bin Kamaruddin ; I left you because of your attitude . And u said urself that ur love towards me is fading . Because u were so damn busy serving NS and with ur friends too. One more thing im not important to you , ur friends are more important to you. I pity ur adeq right now , .. Tell him even though we both no more im still friends with ur adeq yeah . So dont talk so harsh towards me . And to Nick , Ur that Shahcok right ? Thanks eh , and im not a timer. U urself said that u love me and only me . In the end i found out that ur loving someone=) My abang angkat told me that since he knew you so well ^^. U said that as a police officer , you cant lie. STUPID ! Everyday lie , dont tell me bullshit words. Even my own guy lie towards me sometimes . He also under SPF. Dont talk bullshit eh ! ------------------- And2 to Muhammad Alif Bin Aizat. Alif you have done so much , But right now u need to move on and forget about me. I would like to thank you for what u had done towards me. But please accept the fact that im attach to Azrin. You said it urself if im happy so will you kaan? Im already happy with him , dont worry about me . I wont slit my wrist unless for varid reasons. -------------- So the three of you , i made myself clear already . Dont even try to break my rs with Azrin. Azrin didnt even know you guys yet and he did not even do anything towards you guys taw ! Gosshh !! Dont be childish please? Labels: pergy mampos sudah Saturday, January 15, 2011, 3:32 AM
Am i your one in your million?
Am i your one in million ? Am i your best girlfriend you ever had? I dont think im the best girlfriend you ever had. Did i make you smile ? I always make you sad and irratating . I always wanted to ask you that questions. Can you even answer it ? I just want to know how much you love me? Labels: i want to hear it from you , 2:33 AM
Expressing my love towards you.
How i wished i could turn back those times we had together . Those funny moments , Those sad moments , Those lauging moments, Those happy moments, How i wished you are here with me right now. I want to hug you so damn tightly. I can only think booboo as you. As time goes by we have our ups and downs. Im sorry if mami said to you some hurting words but dont mind her. I know one day she will accept you . I just wished that im 24 to 25 years old right now. So that i can get married to him xD .. He is the only one that i have. I know that he is the right one for me. He gave me everything . And i gave him everything that he wants .. If we are in the 5th month together , I hope we both are meant to be together. I dont need anything from you , I just need you only you to be by my side forever. Im sorry for the times that i had made you stress and unhappy. Im sorry if i hurt you alot of times. I didnt even realise what i was doing back then. You still gave me chances , right now im changing and trying to change into a new person. I hope you know that i love you as much as you do. Whenever i see you smile , my heart melts. Whenever i hug you i feel like not letting you go. Looking into your eyes , makes me see that im ur one and only dearest. Your eyes its the one who gave me strength to carry on and your words too. Sometimes i pretend to be happy but inside im not. I think that you dont realise it as i wasnt showing it to you. But im really trying my best to change just for you. You mean so much to me. Our promises is still there havent even break=). I may loved by alot of people , but only one person can love me as in sincerly love me and that is YOU! I may have many friends , but you are always in my heart. My heart always wants to be with you. It keeps on telling me that it misses you. I feel like taking my heart out and give it to you . So that you can see and feel that it only beats just for you. My love for you wont be change , it will never stop loving you. I did not regret knowing a guy like you. You have changed my world into a better world. You show me which way to go to. I would like to thank you for everything that you had done towards me. Im crazy for you, my heart and mind are tingtong for you already. Always keep on thinking about you. Sometimes i try to forget about you by doing school works . But in end up thinking about you and the moments that we had together. Now i know what u have been going through, i understand you . But papa remember this kae ? put me last ; .. Family first before me . I can be important to you or whatever. But you should know who and who is in your life and what position they are in. As for me , I would put you first.. You should know the reason.. Even though we cant meet that often its okay. As long as i have you in my life im already happy taw papa. Talking to you otp , chatting with you through MSN. Its already enough for me. But i just have to endure it for one year . Just for this year. I just need to finish PSLE and pass it just like you always told me. If i pass im sure my family would be proud of me even though they know i do stupid things. Sometimes i told myself why did i even born into this CRUEL WORLD? sometimes im also thankful to be in this world. Thankful to be with you , to know you and to be with you. If i didnt even know you or to be with you now i think my life had ended . I love you just the way u are , u dont need to be handsome , hotstuff or cute. I just need you to be you and only you. Memories with you will always be kept inside my heart. I still can remember how we met and til now. Your love towards me is the best thing in my whole life. Your the best i ever had. The best guy that i ever loved. I promise to myself that you will be the first and last in my life. Im gonna cherish you AND treasure you . Im going to hold you tight and never let you go. I love you so much that im willingy to give you everything that you ask for.. My love towards you is getting stonger and stonger each and everyday. I wont ever stop loving you , my love for you wont even fade away. Your the one that im looking for that i have been searching for . All of these years , i didnt know i would find you. All thanks to GOD with his help. I have become addicted to you , you will be my drug and my medicine. Medicine that can cure me . I need you right now as im missing you so damn badly even though we just have met? Papa , I dont know why im feeling this way but IM FUCKING MISSING YOU RIGHT NOW. My tears are rolling down on my cheeks. You dont know how i feel right now. I want to meet you but i just cant. My family told me that i need to bonding with them. But i also need to spend time with you. 10 more days til our 4th monthsarry. Time goes very damn fast. Soon it will be forever love status. Im missing you =( , For you ; Dear papa , First of all & not the end. Im writing this to you since im blogging. Do you know that i love you so much ? Not love as in loving you fake ! Loving you is from my heart. Not the heart of the banana taw? Is these heart of mines=).. Your life ; Is my life . Your happy ; Im happy too . Your sadness ; Is my sadness too. If your not here in these world ; I will follow you til the end. If you feel theres something missing in your life , check again maybe its ME =).. If i could be any part of you , i would be your tears ,to be conceive in your heart,born in your eyes , live in your cheeks and to die on your lips. You know that I love you , i miss you and i need you . But isnt it better when you should know that i cant forget you ? Im already addicted to you and your cute voice. What had happend to me already ? Papa , whenever i go out i see you. Everywhere i go i see you. Even i at school i also see you. Sometimes i caught myself smiling for no reasons then i realize i was thinking about you. I feel like you are watching me . Maybe its because i need you. All of these times , i want to tell you how i feel about you and how much i love you. But i just cant . Cause i know i did something wrong towards you back then? But soon i will tell you face to face that how much i love you. I love you from the bottom of my heart. Sometimes i didnt show it you , Cause cause i siow siow abit. xD ! Everynight i would cry for you , i didnt know why. Whenever i think about you and those memories we had my eyes went to tears. I didnt really know why. Sometimes im trying really hard not to cry over you,because every tears that it rolled down my cheeks is just one more reminder that these heart of mines is loving you so deeply & will not let you go til death do us apart and Meeting you and knowing you was fate. Whenever i hold your hands, the spaces between ur fingers was meant for me to fill then in=). You told me before my words cant be trusted , can you trust me now? Everywords i say right now its true , everysentence i wrote right now is true. If you still dont believe how i wish i could give you one thing in life , i would give you the ability to see youself through my eyes, and my heart ; only then you would believe and realize how much i love you & how much your special to me. I myself sometimes wrote our names in a heart , but i guess i was wrong ; writing our names in a heart can be broken so i change it and wrote in a circle. Cause circles goes on forever . I know you are reading this now , what is your expression dear ? First time reading how much i love you ? First time reading my feelings towards you and how much you mean towards me? Papa , your the only one in my heart. NO one can ever replace your love towards me til the end of my love. Cause i know ur the right one for me. Im so thankful that i had met you . Didnt regret anything at all. Your my one and only. Til here ? Now papa should know how much i really love you. How much i think about you. How much i miss you. and how special u are to me. What about you? I still want to know how much i mean to you? How much you miss me? How much you think about me and how much you love me. ---------------------- Right now i feel so happy cause i express my feelings already towards you. Loving you was the best thing in my whole life. I love you so much dearest papa. Miss you always ! 250910 will not just end it here but it will go on til eternity. Qeqerlstarbright YourCuteSmartAss will always love her Dearest Prince Charming Josh Ajen=) Forever loved til eternity. Labels: My love towards you isnt a lie. Tuesday, January 11, 2011, 7:07 AM
Introducing HIM
My hubby =) . Muhammad Azrin ; Known as Konbawa Joshysan . Yeah i know he got a funny nickname .. Konbawa in japanese means goodevening . So if you combine it together it would be GOODEVENING JOSHYSAN! Hehehehe !!! , Well he stays in Singapore not far from my house ? He is 20 this year ? He will turn old every February12 =) He is working but not schooling , serving NS =)... He was my good friend before .. I have known him many years back . I even got his old bloggie URL , i jealous you know? =] Then we both stead on the 250910 he propose to me inside the BUS , nice right ? xD... If im not wrong , He likes to eat alot even when he is depress.. Always get tired after work but he makes time for me . I read his blog , and he told himself that he wont have any girlfriend due to he serving NS this year. But he have me right now . I myself understands him , i dont need him to make time for me and whatever shit . I just need him to tell me that he loves me more than i love him. Having him in my life was greatful and thankful. He always made me laugh and smile without any failure. He is nice,friendly,hardworking,funny,loving and understanding., Whenever he sees indian guys he would name them =) .. His talent to name indian guys and i dont know why ? BUT I LIKE ! =)) He gave me alot of advices that i need to know. Sometimes he teach me =] coming soon ! Going to library want to study study , i also want to test him . Everytime in class i keep on writing his name and looking at his pictures . I missed him so much . My guy tall tall , cutecute , and looks like gay ; kalao nampak my guy dont forget to say KONBAWA , KONBAWA ! Hehehe ! i jahat sorry taw papa ^^ .. I think that he is the right one for me .. i loved him so much that i want to give him everything that i have .. Loving you was the greatest thing in my whole life .. Thanks to GOD that we have known each other and to be together .. No matter what people thinks about you i still dont care .. People told me that he is a timer and dunnoe what shyt lah .. You girls and guys are just JEALOUS !! Because he have me , and i have him .. Dont try to spoiled my relationship with him. If girls and guys do it im gonna chop off ur arms and legs .. What goes around comes around ^^... ------------------------------ You girls out there he is mine already liao , since 3 months ? =]] I love him so muchymuchymuchyMUCH ! No words can express my love towards him .. All i can say is that i miss him , and love him ! Muhammad Azrin , saya cintakan awak sgtsgt ! saya tknk hilangkan you ^^ .. dan saya rindukan awak ^^ ------------------------------------- Azrin And Veronica --- AzriNica ; 250910 .... ------------------------------------------- Forever love ^^ Labels: always love you , 6:21 AM
Im so stupid !
Im so stupid ! He is working afternoon shift and he is going back home late. Damn i thought he was working morning shift . I keep on sending him mcgs. Papa so sorry kalao mama very irratating towards you . Im sorry if i disturb you during work time. I forgotten that u are working afternoon shift . Yet i scolded you , Forgive me papa , i got short term memory . Im really sorry . Im really so stupid =( Papa maybe its because im already crazy for you , Over you . Fallen in love crazy for you . I keep on thinking about you . Papa really sorry , i missed you so much taw .. How i wish i can see the future to find out wthr a not we will get married ke tk ? =) I love you so muchymuch !! &&& Papa still owe mama bubbletea ^^ dont worry , i still owe you something kaan? S.L.A.N.T.I.S.H.I.N.G !! papa suke slantishin =) hehehe , !! Labels: sorry , 2:52 AM
SICK !
Hello ! Hows you? =) Well i had a bad time in school today. First period was MUSIC , it was fun. But i had feeling , when the teacher looked at me he keep on looking at me straight. His eyes were looking at me all the way . & I didnt like it at all . GROOSSHHH !! From 8.15 til 10.00 was Maths period. DM stepped into the class. First his eyes were looking at me He told me these sentence ; " You dont start your nonsense again , your in primary 6 right now not in primary 5. If you keep on doing this you think you will pass ur PSLE i GUESS NOT ! One day come , one day never come" I just keep my mouth shut. Then he told me to see him . But i didnt , and he wants to have a confrence with my family plus the teacher plus principle . I was like OK sure ? Why cant they just understand my situation? And to be honest with you im sick right now I cant eat. Cant drink water . Cant lie down on my bed. Feeling dizzy all the way . Wanting to vomit but just cant. I cant tell this to my guy , Im scared later he cant do his work properly . I saw his old bloggie i guess his ex didnt really understand his situation. I pity my guy for what he had gone through. Papa im sorry if i had hurt your feelings. I wont misuse ur heart these time. These time round i will cherish it with all of my heart. Damn im really sick . I dont want papa to topup for me . I feel so MALU towards you already . Haish , .. Yesterday i had a talked with my hubby saying that i want to run away . But he told me to stay put and dont do it . Cause if i run away , he will run away frome me. =( Haish ! I just cant live here anymore . Age of 16years old , no freedom , no life . Still stuck under parents curfew. Cant go out . I just want to have a normal life . I feel so dizzy right now .. Want to vomit already .. Do takecare of urselfs yea? Labels: bloody sick Monday, January 10, 2011, 7:21 AM
For you my love
Hello !! I would like to say something to my hubby=) ------------------------------------------------ Dearest;Muhammad Azrin , Remember September 220910 to 240910 ; We met each other again at MSN. If you hadnt chat with me those dates , i wont be with you right now. I think i would be with another guy who is hurting me right now. On that day , you asked me who was i? I answered blahblahblah xD And on that night , 220910 you told me u cant sleep and ask me to accompanie you. I did , by that time my heartbeat beats faster than i thought. I didnt knew why. As times goes by we SMS, and yet i didnt get to hear your voice=) On 240910 you called me , but u didnt get to hear my voice due to phone spoiled. Then i called you after that can? right ? is it? -.- We started to discuss about our meeting and we met at redhill. 250910 , meeting day with you . My alarm clock and the note came up saying meeting with joshy? I was damn nervous to meet you , . Then i keep on calling you asking you where are you but u told me that u were ontop at the mrt station. Slowly i see you , walking forward to you. I saw you then terus diam -.-".. Hehehe , then i mcg you saying why u diam? Hehehee ! I was damn bodoh right? mcg you but u are right infront of me. Then when we got into the train , we started to talk and talk. I started to look at you when u wasnt looking at me. My feelings for you on that day , was ALREADY 100% inlove with you. Then we went to talk BUS going towards bugis ? Then i ask you wthr a not u go for looks ke tk? Then you say no? From there u mcg someone ? i thought it was someone by it was me? U say u hear hp vibration and u say it was my hp. I thought u were crazy only crazy people can hear weird stuff =) THEN you mcg me saying that WILL YOU BE MY GIRLFRIEND? I was like AHHHH steady ? Then i told you to tell me in personal and not in mcg. =) , walao i still can remember? 250910 we start our love story , =) But as times goes by , we still have ups and downs. Im sorry for hurting you so damn badly And thank you for giving me alot of chances. Im so thankful to have a guy like you. Papa , let me tell you how i feel . Without you in my life , i would feel lost. Dont know where to go. My life would be full of darkness and without light. Before you came into my life my life was full of darkness. But when you came in theres light . Papa , My heart keeps on calling out your name. Everyseconds ,everyhour,everymins ; i keep on thinking about you.. My heart keeps on beating only for you. So fast that i can nearly die for you. Im willing to do everything for you. I dont need your money or any gifts from you. I just need you and only you. I just want to spend time with you. Hug you all the way. mwaaaahh mwaaahh all the way. For all of my life , your the only one . I just dont want anything from you but only you. I love you so much from the bottom of my heart. My love for you is getting stronger and stronger each and everyday. Im getting tingtong for you already .. I love you so much , ! azrinica , 250910.. qeqerlstarbright & konbawa joshysan .. Veronica and Azrin =)) ..................................................................................... Loving you each and everyday ,, mwaaahhhuuggsss !! Labels: loving you , 6:49 AM
Introducing
Hello there again ! Well lets talk about myself now. I live in Singapore, at around tiong bharu area? But moving house soon so gyeah? Will miss these house of mines =( Im 16years old this year. Turns old every may 4 Was born on 1995? Actually i was hoping to born when its 1993? =)) Im still schooling and finding for a part-time job. Weii help me find part-time job lehh ? xD Im currently attach to Muhammad Azrin. Our love story begins at 250910. I dont want to lose him again. Let me tell you my love story now? Me and him do have many problems but yet we have settle it =) But my heart tell me to type it out what had happend to us. He gave me many chances , at first i thought he was that stupid. Stupid as in why he had gave me many chances when i made many mistakes to him. Slowly as time goes by , i started to know him better thats when i know the reason why he gave me many chances. He loved me more than himself. He couldnt let me go . HE CAN LET ME GO BUT HIS HEART WOULDNT. Im thankful to know him. About those problems and mistakes. Cause i wanted to know if he was the right one for me. Papa im sorry for everything. So many times i hurt him. So many times i fool him. But yet , he gave me many chances. This time round im going to cherish him. My heart told me to hold on to him. Hold on to him so tightly that stick like a glue. I loved him more than he knows. Even thought we fought alot of times, we still found ourselfs back together. I myself as qeqerlstarbright , want to say sorry to konbawa joshysan for hurting him so badly. This chance of mines will be the last for me. If ever i had done it again please dont give me any more chances. BUT I KNOW THESE TIME ROUND I WONT DO IT AGAIN. If i did it again , i will call myself the stupid girl in the world who has the greatest guy she ever had. I qeqerlstarbright will cherish and promise to konbawa joshysan that i will be a goodgirl and listen to him. =) I promise to him that i wont do it again. I wont break my promise this time . Labels: i wont break my promise , 6:32 AM
New bloggie
Mushiee mushieee This will be my new bloggie=) The old bloggie have been deactivate? So sad seyh , but never mind in my old bloggie , its all in the past now its 2011 so must have new bloggie and new post right? Weee~~ , school sucks ! =( Oh yeah , i got new boyfie ; We have been 3months from now and going to be 4months. Hmm , i love him so much. Even though we have ups and downs we still settle it in a good way? Right now i feel like running away? But boyfie told me to stay and dont go. Hmm... i just dont know i just cant stay anymore=( Im so hurt right now so damn stress=(. Tomorrow need to go to school again, See that DM face , grrr Feel like bite-ing him in his face -.- His face make me thing of the singapore zoo animals at there. Grrr !! Now hubby sick =( Papa , get well soon =( I pray for you to get well soon =( DAMN IM WORRIED FOR YOUUU !! second post? will be coming right up=) Labels: New life |
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